I miss him again. :[

I'm missing Bubba again. I miss him SO bad all the time... the song Not A Day Goes By by Lonestar REALLY fits how I feel about Bubba... not a day goes by that I don't think of him.

He still has my heart, even two months later. I do love Josh, but for some reason, I still love Bubba more, even though him and I have only talked once since we broke up.... I've been crying about him for the last hour. Colton called me and I was trying not to start crying again while talking to him... he said he called just to tell me good night, but I think he was just horny and when he heard that I was depressed, he didn't want to piss me off.... so yeah. He never calls to tell me good night, so that's why I think that.

I've been thinking about what Bubba said to me when he REALLY opened his heart to me.... "I spend my day waiting to call you. Every time I hear your voice, I NEVER want to let you go."..... that makes me start bawling my eyes out every time I think of it. Like right now.

WHY must I still love him so damn much? I've tried forgetting my love for him, but this fire won't burn out.