The stable and my foot

Today's been kinda sucky. First, my phone alarm went off at 8 like I'd set it to, then I tried waking Daddy up at around 8:45 so he could take me to the stable. It was only after I got out of bed that I realized how much more my foot hurts today than it did yesterday. It's much worse today. Yesterday, I could put weight on it only if I was standing, but I couldn't walk right on it. Today, I can't even stand on it. It hurts SO bad I want to cry. No shit. And, of course, no one gives a flying fuck. I don't know if they think I'm kidding or what, but I'm damn sure not even joking about it.

So, when I got to the stable, I had to go out in the pasture and get Gypsy. I brought her out and my ankle kept hurting, so I was limping while I walked her through the stable. I let her graze as I went to get her tack. The poor baby had a runny nose again. Talk about ew. lol. So, after I got her all tacked up, I mounted her and walked her towards the jumps. Of course, since she's so old, I can't jump her, but I can dream, right? Anyways, I rode for about an hour before my foot got the best of me and made me stop riding. That really pissed me off. Rain can't get me off a horses back, but my damned foot can. >_<

It's still hurting SO bad. I had to do dishes a few minutes ago, and I wanted to just stop, come to my room, and cry because of the pain. I'm not even kidding. Talk about "ow."

The day after Christmas

Today was a pretty good day, I guess. I woke up at around 8:30, then I didn't want to get up, so I just went back to sleep until about 12:20. Then, I got up, and first thing Daddy said to me was "Ashley, get some shoes on and go out back and start hauling wood." I was like WTF. Haha. He cut down about three trees and cut them up into sections because we do need firewood for the New Years party, which should be a BLAST, as always. Maybe this year it will be even more fun because one of the guys is bringing a camper. xD

I was really hoping that Josh would call me today, but he hasn't. What a dick. >_< We just brought the ferrets in from outside. They had so much fun. It was great playing with them.

Christmas presents

It's 10:25A.M. We're going to be leaving for Roy's house here in about thirty minutes, if not less, so I'll need to make this fast. I just wanted to do this before I forgot and got lazy later when I end up remembering. :]

 Anyways, I got a new digital camera, BREAKING BENJAMIN'S NEW CD(I am in LOVE with BB), Sims 3, a couple Paint-By-Numbers, Rock Band 2, a runner (a rug), which I put by my bed, a couple books, an Aeropostale shirt, a new computer chair, a new drawing book, Something, Something, Something Darkside (the Family Guy version of Star Wars), and some horse thing to go up on my wall. I'm excited. :D

The stable

Things at the stable are going great. I'm going to be a member here shortly, and I'm so excited. That means I'll be able to get horses out whenever I want without having to worry about a damn thing. :D

The picture is Max, a Saddlebred, I believe. I've never ridden him, but I would absolutely treasure the opportunity, if I ever came across it. I apparently have yet to prove my true riding ability to the owner of Max. I ride his dam, Gypsy, every Sunday when I go to the stable. Unfortunately, Max is a bit of a hothead, so things would probably get irritating for me when Max would happen to decide he didn't want to listen anymore.

I'm really going to work on getting on Max. He's a great horse, but he's a bit shy. I'm sure he'll get over that once he gets to know me. He can be a real sweetheart, though.

New riding opportunity

SO. Robby has this friend, Joni. Joni has three horses or so (I may be corrected at a later time, but I need to go to her place to see). She's a really, really nice woman. She's got two Quarter Horses and a Paint.Those are the only ones I know of for a fact right now. ANYWAYS.
I may be going to her place this coming weekend so she can see me ride and how I handle her horses. I'm really, really excited for a new riding opportunity. It'd make my weekends so much more enjoyable.

Believe me, riding on Sundays is nice, it really is, but ONLY on Sunday? Pft. Please. I only get to be at the stable for three or four hours. That's not enough riding for me. About ten hours at least is good enough. And preferably, ten hours a day would work wonderfully for me. :]

Christmas at last. And I'm somewhat happy.

Well, it's 1:22 in the morning. Christmas morning, that is.I'm happy that it's finally here. And guess what? Josh still hasn't called me. Not since last Thursday, anyways. I'm starting to re-think our relationship again. I'm not that happy anymore.... I just wish he'd see that and take charge of the situation and at least pretend that he gives a flying fuck about how I feel about it... I don't know if he's really trying or not, but I'd highly appreciate if he could at least call me and tell me "Merry Christmas, baby. I love you." Those six simple words would make me so happy. But no. Ugh!

Daddy home, net back.

Well, now that Daddy is home, I've gotten my net back. Thank God. I've waited about three weeks for his slow ass to tell me how to get it back, but he never did, so I had to wait until he came home for Christmas to get him to do it. Oh, well. It's done now, and I'm happy. He even brought the PS3 this time, so we can get some Rock Band 2 and Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 on. I'm excited. :D 

He even brought his ferrets, Zim (the new one) and Gir. I'm excited to have them both here. They're both a hassle, but they're so damn adorable, that makes up for it.

In the picture, the one looking at the camera is Zim. The one sleeping is Gir. Awww. :D

This one

I can't really say how ATC was, seeing as how I only went in to let Scott know I was there. After I made my appearance, I returned to the bus, where I decided to go ahead and do my SAQs for History, which are due tomorrow. So I sat on the bus the whole time until someone from the school called the bus driver and told her to get all of us on the bus because they were going to be loading buses early today because of the bad weather, and the potential tornado and whatnot, and they wanted all buses off the road by 4.
So, we went back to school and I stood around for about ten to twenty minutes before the buses finally got there, then I went and got on and called Daddy and asked how the weather is (since he's in South Carolina, I wanted to see how the weather's doing up there) and he said it was raining. Wow. Heh.


I have my ring ceremony next Thursday at 7. I can't wait to finally get my ring. :] I hope it's as pretty as I'm imagining. At the ceremony, we have to dress up. So I'd rather slit my throat than be seen in public with a damn dress, but Mama wants me to go, and I have to wear the dress.


Daddy said that I can hang out with Josh on New Years. :D Unfortunately, though, I also have a curfew, which I'm working on getting him to reconsider. The curfew right now is 2, but I think he should just let me stay the night in Statesboro with Josh because no one wants to be driving around at 2 in the morning on NEW YEARS to take their girlfriend home. Ugh.

Getting Back in Shape

I've started running again. I'm really proud of myself. For the most part, I'm doing a mile and a half every day. My most recent time, done earlier today, was 6.20 minutes, for a half mile. I do run in only half miles, but I run like three times a day, so add that up.

After I run, I lift my weights with both arms. I'm bound and determined to get back in shape before I start karate or softball again. I used to have a rep around town for how good I could hit a ball, but last year I didn't make the softball team because of my running (I think), so I'm really working on getting my stamina up.

I've got my arms and legs being worked on (hence the running and lifting), now I just need to work on my ass and stomach, and I HATE doing sit-ups, and I hate the Ab Lounger, because it squeaks. Even if I listen to music while I do it, I still know it's squeaking, and that just ruins my whole thing of motivation. All that damn squeaking annoys the hell out of me.

Josh

I got to be with Josh last night. It was wonderful. :D
We played a bit.. he pulled my hair, pinched my nose, poked my eye, and I did most of it right back to him. We had a lot of fun. We did our normal thing, then we slept for a few hours. We were out from 11P.M. to 5:30A.M. I wish I wouldn't have had to come back, but Mama gets up for work at 5:30.

I woke up (VERY luckily) at around 5:28 and was like "Fuck." I shook him awake, and he was like "What, baby?" and I was like "It's 5:30." And he was like "So?" and I was like "Dude, my mom gets up at 5:30." And he was like "Oh hell." and I was like "Um, yeah!". So he started the car and we sat there about five minute waiting for it to defrost and whatnot, then he took me home and dropped me off at the end of my road as I wanted, and I just walked the two houses down the road to my house. I had a great night... I just wish it wouldn't have had to end like that. >_<

Then, when I got inside, Mama walked into the living room and was like "Why the fuck are you outside?" and I was like "I was running. I wanted to run, so I went outside since it's too early to be using the treadmill."  and she was like "I am so pissed off at you right now. Get your ass in bed." and I was like "Well, damn. I can run if I want to." then I came in my room and went to bed.

I don't get to see him this coming weekend, because he's going to see his daughter, who he hasn't seen since she's been born, and she's a couple months old. It really, really pisses me off that he has a kid, but what can I do, right? I'm not gonna go murder the kid, lol. At least he's wanting to be a part of his daughter's life, you know? I'm happy for him, but I'm really worried about him ending up doing shit with Donna, the baby's mother. From what he's told me, she bitches a lot and she wanted the baby. NOT him. So, hopefully he can stay loyal, as I've done. ^_^

Break-up?

Well, it's coming closer and closer. The time for me and Josh to break up, I mean... we haven't talked since the 14th, and I really, really miss him... but I don't know what the hell's been up with him. His phone is turned off (he has a prepaid, but normally he has minutes on it within the first three days of running out, but here it is, almost three weeks later), and I don't know what the hell's up with that. I know he's gotten paid, so I don't understand why the hell he doesn't have minutes!
I messaged him on Myspace not too long ago, and he read it (I know because the thing told me he'd read it), but he never replied, and yes, that depressed me pretty bad, because I thought he loved me, so he'd want to talk to me. I just don't understand that boy. So, anyways, I think our time is cut short now... I really don't want to end it because I love him, but I'm not happy. It's either an unhappy relationship or be single.. and, honestly, I think I'd rather be single.

The Assembly

So today after I got back to school from ATC, there was an assembly going on. So, since me and Kyle didn't want to sit outside by the bus loading area and just wait for the buses to arrive, we decided to check out the assembly, which was on not drinking and driving. We went in, then just stood against the wall by the locker rooms. Shortly after, Jeremiah and Jason came in and stood by us. There was a GSP (Georgia State Patrol) there, and he was the guest speaker. So he went to the podium to speak, and he was talking about how in his 4 years of being a GSP, most of his cases have been underage drinkers wrecking or whatever. So, anyways, he goes on to say, "There's a real problem here in this county with underage drinkers. In fact, about a year ago, there was an accident out in Rye Patch." I knew where this was going, seeing as how the wreck happened to one of my friends. This boy was friends with damn near everyone in school (R.I.P. Mark). Then he continues: "It happened to a boy named Mark Horne, and I was working his wreck." Yes, that wreck killed Mark, hence the "(R.I.P. Mark)". I don't remember exactly what happened, but goddamn it, we all miss that boy. So, that was the only part of the assembly I saw that I almost started crying at. I really do miss Mark.

Dean's Stupid Ass

I'm planning on skipping school tomorrow, but Chris says he's not going to let me. Chris is my best friend, by the way. Anyways, I'm tired of being made fun of. On the bus, I let Dean sit with me because he had no where to sit. I had just finished my U.S. History SAQs (I finished on the bus), and he was like "When'd you go emo?" (I was sitting with my head against the seat in front of me. Relaxing.) and I was like "I'm not emo. I'm chillin'.' He left it at that for a few minutes, then he started making fun of me. He made fun of how I look.. just as most other people do. He says I have a mustache, which I know I don't, but he was like "It looks like a damn caterpillar crawled up on your face, and it looks like a raccoon got a hold of you, and it looks like some old person took a shit on your head." He was making fun of redheads, then he said that I have red hair, which was why the redhead insults applied to me. I do NOT have red hair, just a red tint. So yeah. I slapped him as hard as I could (which wasn't that hard considering I had a seat behind and in front of me, which seriously limited my swinging power), and he stared at me for a minute and goes "What? You can't take a fucking joke?" and I was like "Not when you take it that far, I can't." Then he got quiet for a minute and I was like "Ain't laughin' now." and he was like "What?" and I repeated myself, then he said something smart, then got confused on a word, so I corrected him (he was trying to remember "pacifist".), and he goes "I don't need your fucking corrections." and I was like "Well, sorry for trying to help." Then, when he thought I wasn't looking, he started making all these faces at me and the girls in the seat in front of the seat next to mine started laughing. I wanted to tell them to shut the fuck up because they weren't involved, but I reckon one of them could beat me in a fight, so I kept my mouth shut. That took ALL my self-control. I'm so incredibly pissed off right now.

Today is me and Josh's three month anniversary, too. And, of course, he doesn't have minutes. The day I actually NEED him. >_<  How fucking wonderful.

The Concert and Other Recent Stuff

The Matt Stillwell concert was great. He signed my shirt, and I got a picture with the guitarist and the drummer. I don't have the drummer pic anymore because the lighting was HORRIBLE because my mom wouldn't listen to me about needing more light... but whatever.

That picture is me and the guitarist. His name is Paul, and he's really cool. :D

Now for the more recent events.

There's a fair in Statesboro this coming weekend, and Josh wants to take me. Yay! Maybe Daddy will get to meet him finally. I don't know. That depends on what Josh has in mind. Because I'll be DAMNED if I'm going to sneak out at midnight to take an hour car ride to Statesboro, then an hour back. Hell nah. I'd get my ass beat if Daddy found out. I just hope Josh has the balls to meet Daddy.

I saw my Environmental Science grade today. I was like O.O, considering it dropped ten points. I had a 94, now I have an 84. I can do so much better, and it's really pissing me off because I at least TRY to do my work in that class. So bite me.

Daddy says he's going to enter me in a turkey shoot, and he might join as well. We're gonna shoot stuff, bottom line. I shot half a box of shells with Daddy's shotgun, and I only missed once, so I'm a pretty good shot, and he thinks I might could win something. :D

I'm really looking forward to that.

Matt Stillwell

Tonight, me and the family are going to see Matt Stillwell in concert. I hadn't heard anything of him before the other day as I was riding the bus to ATC for my Automotive class... but yeah.
He's coming to the Clubhouse, and Mama pulled off free tickets somehow, so me, her, Christina, Daddy, and Robby are going. I wish Josh could go. >_<

I do plan on taking tons of pictures.
There's horses at the Clubhouse, FINE ASS guys, and some more stuff. Frankly, I find Matt to be rather cute, so I reckon I could get a few close-ups of him, if we can get close enough. :D

I miss him again. :[

I'm missing Bubba again. I miss him SO bad all the time... the song Not A Day Goes By by Lonestar REALLY fits how I feel about Bubba... not a day goes by that I don't think of him.

He still has my heart, even two months later. I do love Josh, but for some reason, I still love Bubba more, even though him and I have only talked once since we broke up.... I've been crying about him for the last hour. Colton called me and I was trying not to start crying again while talking to him... he said he called just to tell me good night, but I think he was just horny and when he heard that I was depressed, he didn't want to piss me off.... so yeah. He never calls to tell me good night, so that's why I think that.

I've been thinking about what Bubba said to me when he REALLY opened his heart to me.... "I spend my day waiting to call you. Every time I hear your voice, I NEVER want to let you go."..... that makes me start bawling my eyes out every time I think of it. Like right now.

WHY must I still love him so damn much? I've tried forgetting my love for him, but this fire won't burn out.

Warren's Birthday Party

So today was Warren's fifth birthday, and I didn't want to go to the party. Mama ended up talking me into it, so I went, and I had more fun than I've had in a long, long time, believe it or not.
I got to ride again. That really does mean something to me, because I haven't ridden in a couple years, and I seriously missed it. I got to ride a gorgeous Quarter Horse gelding named Shammy. He's going on eight years old, I think. He's just... wow. Amazing.
He was pretty hard to control at first because he wouldn't go and kept stopping and stuff, but eventually he did what I wanted him to do. He even kept bucking, and I never once fell off. xD

So yeah. I was SO happy. :D

That sexy beast to the left is Shammy. :D. My ugly ass is on him. xD

ATC

This one is titled "ATC" because it's the only thing from my day that's actually worth talking about. So, when we got to ATC, we went to our class, and hung out for the first couple minutes, then me, Kyle, Ashley, and Joe went to the back and started on the tires again. Ashley was getting really, really pissy at everyone because she was getting all frustrated at the tire machine, so yeah. She eventually got it done, though.
Then, when it was my turn to mess with a tire, it took me a bit to get started because I was worried I'd blow the tire up somehow. Lol. But I was okay. So, I did that, then I couldn't get the damn rubber off the stupid bead thing, so Scott had to help me with that. I paid attention when he went over it, but I forgot, so yeah. It's pretty easy, though. After I get the hang of it, I bet I won't be able to believe that I actually had trouble with it.
I got pretty greasy and stuff, but that just made it funner. :]
So yeah, that's really all I have to write about.

Sunday Morning

Well, Josh failed me yet again.
He wanted to sneak out again last night, and I said yes, and he was going to bring his cousin again for reasons I don't know, but we'd drop her off at her friends house just like we did last time..
Anyways, he texted me and goes "Guess what" and I was like 'What?" and he goes "I got a fucking flat." OHMYGOD. That pissed me off SO bad.
I was already forcing myself to stay awake waiting on him, and then that? What the fuckin' fuck? That damn car. That's the SECOND time. Ugh!

Anyways, that's done and over with, so I'm over it.
But last night, me and Colton were talking, and he was all horny and I wouldn't do anything about it, then he got all mad, and eventually he said I made him feel like shit because he "can't even get the girl that he likes horny." and I was like "Well, you're not shit. I'm just.. not able to get horny right now. I'm sorry. Damn." Then we hung up and waited a couple hours then he called me back and we talked a good while and then he was like "Are you my baby, baby?" and I was like "I don't know... do you want me to be?" and he goes "Well, if I'm talking on the phone with you at two in the morning on a Saturday night, I think I'd want you to be." and I was like "Aw. Okay." Haha. He's incredibly cute.

And tomorrow is our two month, so he'd better be ready to be pretty damn sweet to me. :]

The Lady And The Night's Events

Well, the lady was pretty cool. She had awesome snakebites that I absolutely want. We tried doing that tattoo thing, but it looked all bad so I had to rinse it off, lol.

I was SO emotional all night, and I have no idea why. Daddy and them were talking about Angel, which made me start crying a bit, so I had to walk away so no one would see. Then, they made fun of me and my best friend. And since my best friend is gay, he gets messed with a lot for it, and for some reason I started crying about them being mean about him like that.

No one has really texted me all day.. I'm pretty lonely. Nick has a gf, obviously.. I wish he would've told me. There's another almost-heartbreak for me. I'm glad I didn't fall for him like I said I did...

It's 2:32am, and I'm geting tired, but I don't want to go to bed. I want to stay up and screw around on the computer, you know? (Oh damn, I was just thinking and I was SO close to falling asleep).

Josh and I have barely texted today, and our two month anniversary is on Monday (the 14th). I'm excited, but at the same time I'm nervous. If he goes off and gets drunk and thrown in jail and don't bother to call me, I'm going to be pissed. That's what happened on our one month. Ugh..

So Much For Megan's Parents

Well, that one lady is still coming over, but she's not bringing either of her dogs, because obviously she doesn't want to have to go through collapsing and setting up any cages to put them in, so yeah.
There's just another thing I got my hopes up for, and ended up having those hopes ruined over. Ugh. I need to stop doing that.
Mom just got home and told me that the lady is going to be leaving her place at around 8, and it's 6:22 now.
But I am going to be getting a tattoo tonight. Not a real one, but this tattoo should supposedly last about a month, so I don't know. :]

Home From School

Okay, so, like I said, I forgot what site this was, lol. I had to go on Google to find it. xD. My forgetful self.

School was pretty good, I guess. Nothing major to write about.

Megan is out of her cage, and she's annoying me with the rattling of that damn collar. lol. This lady my mom works with might be staying over tonight for some reason. I don't know... Anyways, said lady is the one who bred Megan's parents, and she wanted to bring her dogs, so Mama said yes. So, Megan is going to get to see her mama and daddy. :]. I've never seen them, so I'm excited. And with Megan being as cute as she is, I'm sure her parents will be pretty as hell.

The picture is Megan. :].

She's a Lab x Shepherd x Chow x Beagle. She's awful adorable for a mutt, ain't she? :D

First

Well, this is my first blog on here.
I'm probably going to end up forgetting all about this, so I reckon I'll just type in it while I remember.

I'm watching Harold and Kumar: Escape From Guantanamo Bay right now... I wish Nick would stop signing in and out of Yahoo.. it kinda depresses me. lol.

I don't know whether or not I love him... I get all excited when I see that he signs in, and I get like.. "ah, fuck." when he signs out. o.O.
Maybe I just like him a lot.. I don't know. But it's killing me. I just wish he lived closer so I could actually be with him.
Don't get me wrong, I'm COMPLETELY happy with Josh, but Nick just seem so.. fun. Josh gets all serious sometimes. It's nice that he can be mature about things, but still.

So yeah, I know this was a short post thing, but whatever.
I actually think I'm going to put this in my favorites so I won't forget it. :]